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Monday, March 10, 2008

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 14:25:06 GMT

all entries will be in juxakid.blogspot.com

will be not updating xanga anymore.

F... OFF
xD

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 14:35:28 GMT

everything seem to be going not the way it was.
everything seem to be getting far apart.
everything seem to be a different kind of people.
everything seem to be.....
just different..

~end~

wish the best in life.

Monday, February 04, 2008

Mon, 04 Feb 2008 10:28:43 GMT

Hellllllloooooooooooooooo.... peepz.
told u guys already i wont abandon xanga. just tat i m lazy to write long long out.
okie it is been awhile that i keep updated my blogspot than xanga.
so...
here we go.

~back to the past~
29Jan
It is,
the last day for Jia
it is really different to have him back here in Malaysia.
and now he is back to Hong Kong.
DAM BITCHY right??

a useless buddy, tat will not join us for Chinese New Year.
just to give him another night together, we plan to sing k in red box
till 3am in the morning.
29th Jan, i been outside for the whole day till the next day 31th Jan.
Been a crazy day and night for me
i lost my voice, but i get back my voice back.
but i m able to have my rest back.

~RED BOX~
midnight till 3 in the morning.

me trying to sing, jia still tat vain, ben is singing along.

ben_ione_megan

Ione_Megan_sai sai lup(ryan)
i m really obsess with this name dy.
IONE thank to u lar.

okie, i lost my voice, and i m trying to sing out.

ben!! wat u trying to do?? leave me alone i m trying to sing my song.
see ben's hand!!!
he is trying to "....." my "......."

and now.. he is trying to kiss me!

don see me please, no idea wat i m doing also. XD

meet jia... singing!! ione... PRO SINGER!

look at JIA plz!! plz!!! driving while take picture omg!!
was on our way to subang mamak. LORONG!!
NO name, just call it lorong!

haha. look at this wei! all acting cool.!!
haha... so bored! and it is their 1st time in LCCT!
Lcct is like my 2nd home, i always go lcct to fetch my daddy. and send my daddy.

wat if i m really leaving?
wat if i really go through tat door?
CONFIRM! i CRY! and u all HAPPY!

~Pit Stop~
1/2-2/2
~BAR CELONA~
whole lots of fun, it is been really awhile,
i din not enjoy myself, though there is trouble,
but i help wat i can,
but all the problem settle mostly by yvonne boyfriend, and i m just helping out.
in the end, i dance alot, i drink quite alot.
enjoy myself.
I hope u guys enjoy ur night too!
IONE AND TYY!
DRUNK!
ha ha ha ha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIMBO-san!
there is not much picture,
cause i m always off to the dance floor.

sweating like taking bath.
but totally enjoy man.!

okie. i m totally acting, i don smoke...
i really don smoke. believe me.
i borrow that cig from others.
and take picture.
cool right? like real wei.
but the smoke really sux and the smell too.

the light and cig is completely fake.
it never even touch my mouth.
i will never put those stuff in my mouth.
*YCUK!*

Ben_RYAN_Calvin.

"the world is nothing compare from what i have seen..."
everything seems to be different.
but i m liking it pretty much.

Monday, January 28, 2008

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 04:07:28 GMT

looks like i m totally betrayed xanga.
not tat i don wan write anything here...
there is no big event for me to write out here....
so i m totally totally off here....
just hopefully there is something big to write out here....
please do come and visit my blogspot,

http://juxakid.blogspot.com

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 01:09:08 GMT

I am worst enemy of myself and I love winning over myself.
Well this section describes my different encounters with my inner self
when I was caught in between low and high phases of life.
Well, there are many types of fights rather wars
that I have fought with myself and have won
but few are existing which I fail even to dare.
And, there are few which I always think to escape.

btw, i will be updating my blogspot more than xanga.
xanga will be my big events stuff, blogspot will be my daliy stuff.
so do plz visit my http://www.juxakid.blogspot.com

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 08:58:34 GMT

i m back~ hello, time really flies right?
okie is jux middle of the month. and i m broke. *cough* i bought alot of stuff and speend money like waterfall! WT_! let me see wat i spend on~
1. FOOD! RM500++~! mostly the bill from sushi~
2. Entertainment!! RM250 i think so... CLUB CLUB CLUB!
3. 2 bottle Liqour! Rm350, JD and BL(BLUE LABEL) but finished in my friends party.
4. Long selves shirt G2000 RM200

OM_G! i spend like shit! anyhow, i m happy to spend money!
to lovely jean: i m afraid i need to drag the time again. I m broke. cant buy ur birthday bag =P and LUNA.. ERM!!

Yesterday, is Wai Kit birthday, actually i don really feel like going, half of myself wan to go but half don wan. so i drag drag, till yesterday wai kit ask me, whether i m going onot? i was like see 1st lar... cuz is ALOHA! DUH! which teenager will go? sorry for my rudeness... I was like think 1st, if i going i will see u to9... Hann shaun, Chui Yi ask me to go, so i was stuck again, and not to forget.. Dolphin also ask me to go... and finally i decided to go... Ben go laundry, i go Aloha... okie... WT_! i go Aloha!!! Outside the club with Hann Shuan and Elicia, waiting for wai kit to bring us IN! Okie.. go in only the song!! WOW!! so "NICE". and look at those "young" "gals"!! the nite was okie, not bored, mostly all of them i know, make friend is good. as u know i m a friendly person... and Wai Kit dad ask me to go fishing? i was like WAT? U wan me fishing here? fish wat lar uncle, ntg for me to fish.. send cherish and elaine back. and i head home...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DING CHAO! 12/1~

Daddy's Birthday soon! WAT SHOULD I GET FOR MY DADDY?
WAT SHOULD I GET? hmmmmm!!!!

Monday, January 07, 2008

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 05:05:40 GMT

yeah yeah yeah... blah blah blah....

things really mess up this few days, i din expect this things happen all in jux one week, i thought after tat day, everything could be fine.. it takes time for me to really forget something i like after tat day... and jux hope to be friends is enough...but it jux happen to fast... happen to fast... after tat day, i still feel so worried, worried about something, bad feeling,and i din expect this is the bad thing will happen, anyhow my bad feeling come true.. wat we din expect to happen, happens.. it takes time for me to heal... i jux wish it don take too long..

i din get to sleep for 57hours, but i did rest myself, my eye my body my thought, everything i m tired!! i m a few inch to take sleeping pills, which i promised myself i will never take sleeping pills no matter wat happen. i m holding the 3 pill in my hand, and deciding, whether to put in my mouth o to put in the rubbish bin mouth.. finally, in the rubbish bin mouth and i head to the living room and watch tv till now.

THANK YOU EILYN! for the music!! *evil laugh*

tonite, play play play!!!! yahooooo.....

Btw, OMG!! we play big 2 in ac yesterday... OMG!!! punishment...

Tzu Siang and I!!
we......................................................
OMFG!!

Kitty and I!!
we.....................................................
we wash our fingers lor!!!!!
OMG!!!

TO9 we shall play again... =) plz wash ur finger and toes!!! =p

the _____________ i had starting to fade...
i wish it will never happen...
angry me, kill me, smack me, hit me, stab me, o jux HATE me!

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 20:19:33 GMT

This is my last piece of words,
being human is the hardest,

let the future bury what is in the past.

chasing my dreams tat i ever lost,

being back to reality and stop the fantasy.

RYAN NGU HOU JEN CHANGED!

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 05:36:00 GMT

I M BORN TO SMILE,
NOT THE OPPOSITE!
SMILE =)

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 15:40:22 GMT

Sorry for not posting the picture for the xmas party... no time no edit... actually i did try to post, but internet connection was slow.. so waited till i really going to brust..

OKIE!! xmas was over... New years is here... say good bye to 2007 and say hi to 2008... Life is like a novel, chapter by chapter... year by year... a new chapter of life fills with all different of obstacle, happiness and many more. A year of 2007 is the best and upset experience my whole life. This is a year tat i will rmb till the rest of my life. know y? i met, 3 guys tat i had never wish before, to know me... This is the best thing really happen to me, i thought i could not find a best friend like u all... though IONE and WEI LIANG are the closest to me, yet i still feel warm right beside u three... I so glad that i know u guys, and u guys being the best...
In the other hand, i want this year to be forgotten... many things really happen, most of it really bad and hurt much of my life, sometime i don feel like being in this world. i jux don wan to say out wat is the past, had forgotten it.. I will not look back at the past...

"a wrong decision sometime will lead to an unwanted"

A new year was not a new year i expected this year, i being a jerk and a bastard really cause me hurt my close friends... i m really sorry... and the rest of the story i shall keep it a big secret... forgive me if i ever had done anything wrong...

jux wanna wish u all the best in life..

another crying moment for me...

HAPPY 2008!!
jia ben and aaron... i love u guys...